Succubus ¹

Why do you look so deep into my eyes, when you tell me lies?
Why do you tell me that love's the death of objectivity?

May 1997

suc·cu·bus [-b&s] n; plural suc·cu·bi [/-"bI, -"bE/] Etymology: Middle English,
from Medieval Latin, alteration of Latin succuba paramour, from succubare
to lie under, from sub- + cubare to lie, recline Date: 14th century;
: a demon assuming female form to have sexual intercourse with men
in their sleep - compare INCUBUS

Inferno ²

August 1997

in·fer·no [in-'f&r-(")nO] n; plural -nos; Etymology: Italian, hell,
from Late Latin infernus; Date: 1834; : a place or a state that resembles
or suggests hell "the inferno of war"; also : intense heat "the roaring
inferno of the blast furnace"

white trash?

so, I'm sittin' here thinking of you my dear and all I remember
is a pain in the ass - after all those restless whiskey stress,
for I love you and I hate you, and I cannot decide on
what's right and what's wrong, anymore...

is this really you? or just a piece of you? the abyss inside
your mind is more than unkind to people you think are too weak,
so you kick 'em as you've been kicked - to teach 'em a lesson
what your fucking life's been all about?

where's your inner greatness, your kindness, gentleness, soul?
where's my little beauty queen? the cute looking, always smiling elve?
is this really you, dear? then how could I fall in love with a
piece of shit? how could I fall in love thinking ``is this it?''

if this is you, you're just a little piece of rubbish,
a tiny speck of dirt - white trash as they say...
white trash, white lies - is that all you got?
and I just can't get over it and I won't; I fear -
so get ready for your nemesis, dear.

August, 17th 1997

...written while sitting on a bridge.

nem·e·sis ['ne-m&-s&s] n; Etymology: Latin, from Greek
1 capitalized : the Greek goddess of retributive justice
2 plural nem·e·ses /-"sEz/ a : one that inflicts retribution or vengeance
b : a formidable and usually victorious rival or opponent
3 plural -eses a : an act or effect of retribution b : BANE 2

Purgatory ³

July 1997

pur·ga·to·ry ['p&r-g&-"tOr-E, -"tor-] n; plural -ries; Etymology: Middle
English, from Anglo-French or Medieval Latin; Anglo-French purgatorie, from
Medieval Latin purgatorium, from Late Latin, neuter of purgatorius purging,
from Latin purgare; Date: 13th century; 1: an intermediate state after death
for expiatory purification; specifically : a place or state of punishment
wherein according to Roman Catholic doctrine the souls of those who die in
God's grace may make satisfaction for past sins and so become fit for heaven
2: a place or state of temporary suffering or misery

Paradise Lost ⁴

August 1997

par·a·dise ['par-&-"dIs, -"dIz] n; Etymology: Middle English paradis, from
Old French, from Late Latin paradisus, from Greek paradeisos, literally,
enclosed park, of Iranian origin; akin to Avestan pairi-daEza- enclosure;
akin to Greek peri around and to Greek teichos wall - more at PERI-, DOUGH
Date: 12th century; 1a: EDEN 2b: an intermediate place or state where the
righteous departed await resurrection and judgment c: HEAVEN; 2: a place or
state of bliss, felicity, or delight - par·a·dis·ial [/"par-&-'di-sE-&l, -zE-/]
also par·a·dis·i·cal [/-si-k&l, -zi-/] adj.

fool's paradise; n; Date: 15th century; : a state of delusory happiness

lost ['lost] adj; Etymology: past participle of lose; Date: 15th century
1: not made use of, won, or claimed; 2a: no longer possessed b: no longer known
3: ruined or destroyed physically or morally : DESPERATE
4a: taken away or beyond reach or attainment : DENIED "regions lost to the
faith" b: INSENSIBLE, HARDENED "lost to shame"; 5a: unable to find the way
b: no longer visible c: lacking assurance or self-confidence : HELPLESS
6: RAPT, ABSORBED "lost in reverie"; 7: not appreciated or understood : WASTED
"their jokes were lost on me"; - lost·ness [/'los(t)-n&s/] n.

Incubus ⁵

So, welcome to the death of objectivity
and the killing fields of the wide boys...

September 1997

in·cu·bus ['i[ng]-ky&-b&s, 'in-] n; plural in·cu·bi [-"bI, -"bE];
also -bus·es; Etymology: Middle English, from Late Latin, from
Latin incubare; Date: 13th century; 1: an evil spirit that lies on
persons in their sleep; especially : one that has sexual intercourse with
women while they are sleeping - compare SUCCUBUS;
2: NIGHTMARE; 3: one that oppresses or burdens like a nightmare