Ragged Clown ¹

A ragged clown came shuffling through
With jester's tears in february
And butterflies from all around
Settled on his poet's crown

A pretty sight she seemed to be
Avenue to eternal feelings
So in the nights it came to me
My dreams invaded - bedroom scenes

Why do I love?
I can't explain
Insanity, or a greater game?

A ragged clown came shuffling through
The corridors of MPI
And as he lay his body down
The scars that lined his face were frown
An injured soul, was hurt again
Now hear the stories he will tell
Of butterflies and summertimes

Does anyone to read this here
Remember how he used to be
Before this february came?
This heart will never be the same...

August 1989

Even Jesters Cry ²

I act my rôle, play classic style
I feel no need to live or die
I bleed the lyrics for this song
Can't right my rights, can't right my wrongs
This epitaph to a broken dream
An exercise in silent screaming
In screams that's born from sorrow
Sorrow!

Am I or not, what I play to be?
Let me be yours, I don't want to be free
I mime this life, can't say I live
I thought that you're the one to give
Me a blink of hope, just a little blink of hope
But you say sorry
Sorry!

``Come on old clown!
Look at all the world around
Time to spread your wings and fly
There'll be no more second try
You loose - it's time to go!
It's just another sold out show
It's her life, let it be her life
She'd be running away too often...''

Do you see what I meant to say?
I will go my way, I will do my way
Do it without you, I'll do it without you
You'd be running away too often...
So please let me ask you - did you really felt nothing for me?
Please let me ask you - for it's really not that plain to see!
Now when I testify and when I verify some of your answers
Seem to be emerald lies, sparkling like emerald lies

I played the fool, I played your boy
So leave it now, your broken toy
You know I'll smile, won't say a word
Just write some lines
My lyrics crimes
And look into your eye

But even jesters cry, even jesters cry...

Dragør Haven, Denmark - July 1990

Oggi ³

Do you remember, sitting at a window late at night?
Do you remember, watching at a cross-road's traffic light?
Do you remember, talking at the phone with tear stained eyes?
Do you remember, walking through the parks in summer times?
By the way, why couldn't I break your heart?
Please excuse me, I know, there was a chance to break your heart
So sorry, I never meant to break your heart
But you broke mine

Oggi, is it too late to say I'm sorry?
And Oggi, can't we get it together some day?
I just can't go on pretending
That it came to a natural end
Oggi, oh I know that you could love me
And Oggi, I thought that we'd always be friends
We said that ours would last forever, so
How did it come to this bitter end?

Do you remember, 21 red balloons at birthday's night?
Do you remember, you didn't like me clutching all too tight?
Do you remember, laughing at the jokes I had to say
Do you remember, I never understand I couldn't stay
Do you remember, I held your hand to help you cross the river?
Do you remember, the night we somehow felt a shiver?
By the way, why couldn't I break your heart?
Please excuse me, I know, there was a chance to break your heart
So sorry, I never meant to break your heart
But you broke mine

Oggi, I just want to say I'm still there
But Oggi, I'm too scared to pick up the phone
To hear the background grumbling of your latest lover
Who fits your dreams, while I was gone
Oggi, I still try to write a love song
Oggi, it's more important to me - now that you're gone
Some time will pass, then we'll prove if I was right
Or we'll prove if I was wrong

Do you remember, I said that when he comes, I'll have to go?

August 1990

Season's End? ⁴

Getting close to Season's End
A whispering in my mind
Will we never meet again?
Are we just too different?
Snow flakes on some new born feel's
Try them to melt away
Is it true I'll never see your face again?
Please tell me, tell me why
We're getting old and reaching high
Just to leave our footprints in the earth?
Our hair turns grey, we're giving birth to children
Please tell me, tell the child
Why can't we change this world?
Why can't we tame the sea?
Why can't my seasons end within your arms?
Don't want to watch our new world break apart
'Cause loss regrets would never mend
I know I'll miss you 'till the end
When you say goodbye
When you say goodbye
Don't say goodbye...

September 1989

After You ⁵

There's a cross through my life your appearance has made
There's a spark in my heart that's burning so mad
There're scars on my face from an ugly desease
There's grey in my eyes, though it's only a piece
I'll name it after you

There's a stray cat I feed someone found in the street
And she loves me to hold her but she don't let me keep her
And she sits at the door to be let out at night
I cannot be here without her and I worry about her
I'll name it after you

So if there is ever born a child with my face
While I travel my worlds and I can't find my place
I won't wind up believing that paradise
Is nothing more than a feeling that goes on in my mind

So if I ever find out what it is, there's something you could do
'Cause if I ever hold my childhood's dream in arms
I want it to be yours and I want to tell you
We'll name it after you, after you...

September 1989

Just Good friends? ⁵

There's something I'd like to ask you before it's too late,
It's been on my mind for a very long time
and scares me now more than it did before,
now that there's so much more at stake
It seems we're so close yet so far away.

You turned me down gently, send me out of order,
when I declared my true feelings, after I played
my part of the brother in arms,
the shoulder to cry on...
We've always been so close, yet so far away.

What would you do, if I got down on my knees to you?
Would you hold it against me, and run away one more time?
What would you do, if I opened up my heart to you?
Would I just be another who's waisting his time?
Oggi, are we just good friends?

Do I really need to ask you?
I'm pretty sure to know your answer by now,
Do we just play a game where we try to pretend,
that all that's between us, is all that's between us?
And all we can rely on is just being good friends?

Is that all we depend on?
Resigned to share mugs of cafes, and pieces of fairy cake?
Sunday walks through the pouring rain?
And talks on your Belgian laced bodys, that you hide away from me?
Reciting our failures as if we needed
Proof or regret -
Of what we might have had?
And what should have been?
(Or will be?)

November 1993

Sympathy ¹⁰

Your sympathy is what I need my friend...
Your sympathy until the bitter end...?
Your sympathy that makes me high or low...
Don't know where our road will end or go...

My sympathy is what you get my friend...
My sympathy until the bitter end...?

February 1997

Comeback ¹¹

Who looks at you while you're sleeping?
Who knows all the thoughts you're keeping?
Who reaches out to you whenever you're just calling?
Don't open your eyes too soon for it might be me-

The foolish side-steps that you've taken
And all the telltale stories that say you're foresaken
I see you and someone else behind you
Don't open your eyes too soon for it might be me-

I'm haunted by my broken dreams
Haunted by a million loudless screams
Creaping cautiously away to leave your life
Running fast but getting nowhere-I just can't escape from you
But I don't know if I ever want to comeback again...

February 1997